Alhamdulillah July is ending ! This means my bank account will be replenished very soon and I could breathe again !
Things to do this weekend:
1) Buy a sewing machine from Lazada
2) Buy materials for my first sewing project: Maternity Pillow. Things include; cotton fabric and kekabu. What's kekabu in English ?
3) Look for plastic packaging for our Brownies project.
4) 2 "makan raya" events to attend.
5) Order baby's cute stuff online. Yesss shopping !
Wednesday, July 29, 2015
Wednesday, July 8, 2015
My Fear of Labor
A few people say if you are scared of giving birth then do not get pregnant. Well, I am scared as hell of labor but I've always wanted a child of my own. So when I got married, I never gave labor much thought. Every month I will expect my menses to not appear and give me the good news.
The 3rd month after I got married, we got the good news. Despite the original plan of having a child only a year after :P
But now, all I can think about is labor. Not just the pain, the possible complications that comes with labor as well. I try to cheer myself with the fact that I will be rewarded with martyr if I were to go any time between labor and 40 days after but the thought of leaving my husband and my beautiful child is too heartbreaking.
Then comes the pain. I am scared that I can't handle the pain. Sure there is an alternative => epidural. With all the scary stories that have surfaced lately, forget it. Besides, I am scared of needles too. The image below makes me wanna puke so yeah, FORGET IT.
The 3rd month after I got married, we got the good news. Despite the original plan of having a child only a year after :P
But now, all I can think about is labor. Not just the pain, the possible complications that comes with labor as well. I try to cheer myself with the fact that I will be rewarded with martyr if I were to go any time between labor and 40 days after but the thought of leaving my husband and my beautiful child is too heartbreaking.
Then comes the pain. I am scared that I can't handle the pain. Sure there is an alternative => epidural. With all the scary stories that have surfaced lately, forget it. Besides, I am scared of needles too. The image below makes me wanna puke so yeah, FORGET IT.
I actually wonder if period pain is about the same as labor pain because my period pain is hell. If it's the same, although it's hell, at least I know how to handle it.
I have been taking hypnobirthing classes with a practitioner named Ayuni. I will review the classes in next post (maybe) but 1 thing I must say, it has helped me a bit to calm my nerves down. So I guess I just gotta practice and think of happy thoughts. All fear out the window and believe in Allah. He knows best.
Easier said than done. Pray for me okay, dear friends?
Wednesday, July 1, 2015
Life is so stressful
Here is my rant for the day.
I've stopped using my Maybank account for awhile due to my standing order with Maybank Hire Purchase. They've deducted my car loan instalment twice in a month. Then the next month, they deduct again because they did not update the system.
For some people, the amount is nothing. For me, 568 is critical.
So then my office started to use CIMB as the salary account so everything was fine until I got transferred to another company. They will bank in the cheque into the Maybank account as it is near to the office. To my surprise, my account is blocked. Why ?
So I called the customer service. They asked me to go to ANY branch to check. So I walked under the sun, still feeling fine, to the one near my office. They said they can't check. Need to check with customer service -_- A lil' annoyed. I said I already called customer service.
So they gave me my home branch contact number. I called both the numbers for 2 hours, nobody picked up. So I went on the website, used the contact number they labelled as "Manager" then only somebody picked up. The savings accounts officer was busy so whoever that picked up the phone said she will leave a message. She was nice.
Then Ms Ho called me but she annoyed me. She said it's because of my car loan. Ok fine. Then I said if it's possible to remove the tagging so that I can pay the loan. She said no, I need to call Maybank Auto Finance. I told her I don't remember which branch so can you check for me in the system or something.
Ms Ho : NO I CAN'T HELP YOU. The system doesn't have this info.
Me : Then how am I going to check ?
Ms Ho : I don't know. You can check your grant or something.
THIS ANNOYED ME TO THE MAXIMUM. Blame my pregnancy hormone.
Me: Then how am I supposed to check ? I don't have the grant.
She gave me a number which again NOBODY freaking picked up. Then I remembered I received a message on the car loan so I called the number.
At today's date, my outstanding is 1.8 month. So usually I would pay 1 month which will make it 0.8 month outstanding. On the 15th, it will become 1.8 month again. As far as I know they can only block when it's 3 months outstanding.
Whatever.
I asked how to reactivate my account. They said they will need to deduct the whole outstanding amount. I asked if I can negotiate to deduct only 1 month but she kept saying no because then my outstanding will become 3 months. I argued. But no point arguing because it was like speaking to a loyar. Loyar buruk.
She said that I could send in a letter and she will ask her manager but trust me, her tone made me imagine punching her in her guts.
By then I was literally crying on the phone. I couldn't control my emotion. I was so angry and stressed that I couldn't stop the tears. Pregnancy hormones. OMG.
I couldn't argue anymore. I said fine. Deduct the freaking total amount and activate my account. I want it done by 5. 5.20pm she called saying that it couldn't be done because my home branch did not receive the letter via fax. WHAT THE FUCK ? Use the fucking email for God's sake.
But again crying, well I was already crying before she called, I said fine. She said tomorrow early morning she will make sure it's settled. It's 11.12 am now. Account is still not activated. Been trying to call her but to no avail.
Why am I so stressed ? I don't make much to begin with. I live on my month to month salary. My salary this month got cut because I asked for 10 days unpaid leave in between the transfer so that I could focus on my exam. Which I think a waste because the paper was fucked up. On top of the cut, I gotta pay the car insurance which amount to another 1000.
So after everything I gotta pay, I gotta live on 5 bux a day if they deduct the whole outstanding. The fault is mine but OH MY GOODNESS JUST FUCK EVERYBODY ! Yeah its the fasting month. Whatever.
I've stopped using my Maybank account for awhile due to my standing order with Maybank Hire Purchase. They've deducted my car loan instalment twice in a month. Then the next month, they deduct again because they did not update the system.
For some people, the amount is nothing. For me, 568 is critical.
So then my office started to use CIMB as the salary account so everything was fine until I got transferred to another company. They will bank in the cheque into the Maybank account as it is near to the office. To my surprise, my account is blocked. Why ?
So I called the customer service. They asked me to go to ANY branch to check. So I walked under the sun, still feeling fine, to the one near my office. They said they can't check. Need to check with customer service -_- A lil' annoyed. I said I already called customer service.
So they gave me my home branch contact number. I called both the numbers for 2 hours, nobody picked up. So I went on the website, used the contact number they labelled as "Manager" then only somebody picked up. The savings accounts officer was busy so whoever that picked up the phone said she will leave a message. She was nice.
Then Ms Ho called me but she annoyed me. She said it's because of my car loan. Ok fine. Then I said if it's possible to remove the tagging so that I can pay the loan. She said no, I need to call Maybank Auto Finance. I told her I don't remember which branch so can you check for me in the system or something.
Ms Ho : NO I CAN'T HELP YOU. The system doesn't have this info.
Me : Then how am I going to check ?
Ms Ho : I don't know. You can check your grant or something.
THIS ANNOYED ME TO THE MAXIMUM. Blame my pregnancy hormone.
Me: Then how am I supposed to check ? I don't have the grant.
She gave me a number which again NOBODY freaking picked up. Then I remembered I received a message on the car loan so I called the number.
At today's date, my outstanding is 1.8 month. So usually I would pay 1 month which will make it 0.8 month outstanding. On the 15th, it will become 1.8 month again. As far as I know they can only block when it's 3 months outstanding.
Whatever.
I asked how to reactivate my account. They said they will need to deduct the whole outstanding amount. I asked if I can negotiate to deduct only 1 month but she kept saying no because then my outstanding will become 3 months. I argued. But no point arguing because it was like speaking to a loyar. Loyar buruk.
She said that I could send in a letter and she will ask her manager but trust me, her tone made me imagine punching her in her guts.
By then I was literally crying on the phone. I couldn't control my emotion. I was so angry and stressed that I couldn't stop the tears. Pregnancy hormones. OMG.
I couldn't argue anymore. I said fine. Deduct the freaking total amount and activate my account. I want it done by 5. 5.20pm she called saying that it couldn't be done because my home branch did not receive the letter via fax. WHAT THE FUCK ? Use the fucking email for God's sake.
But again crying, well I was already crying before she called, I said fine. She said tomorrow early morning she will make sure it's settled. It's 11.12 am now. Account is still not activated. Been trying to call her but to no avail.
Why am I so stressed ? I don't make much to begin with. I live on my month to month salary. My salary this month got cut because I asked for 10 days unpaid leave in between the transfer so that I could focus on my exam. Which I think a waste because the paper was fucked up. On top of the cut, I gotta pay the car insurance which amount to another 1000.
So after everything I gotta pay, I gotta live on 5 bux a day if they deduct the whole outstanding. The fault is mine but OH MY GOODNESS JUST FUCK EVERYBODY ! Yeah its the fasting month. Whatever.
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