Pink Lemonade Baby Shower

"Pink Lemonade"

That was the theme.

Weeks before the shower, my sister told me that the theme was going to be "The Kardashian" *shriek!* Then she mentioned to me not to tell Alea that she told me, one of my bffs also one of the party organizer. *heart drops* I learned from the past not to believe everything my sister says but..I don't know. WHY THE HECK WOULD ANYONE THINK THAT THAT WOULD BE A GOOD THEME ? A Kardashian baby. Oh em gee, please NO !

Okay. Enough drama. 

I was super relieved when I stepped into The Picnic Table in Kota Damansara and I see nothing with The Kardashian theme. Instead, I was welcomed with a very pretty picnic-like ambience, very colourful with pink and yellow as the main theme. It was BEAUTIFUL ! I loved it ! 

The girls were dressed up in pink and the boys were dressed up in yellow. My close friends and family were there with a few exceptions.

It was a very sweet gesture from my friends as I have been asking them for a picnic at the park but thanks to the haze, we never did it. So I'm happy that we could do it indoor and the buffet spread by The Picnic Table was superb ! The owner was a Sri Amanian, I heard. Not bad, girl !

So here, I wanna thank my friends and family for the time taken to organize and attending the shower. I appreciate every bit of it and baby ZA thanks everybody for the lovely gifts.

Now let the pictures do the talking!

Dear baby girl, as I'm writing this you are now 38 weeks young in my tummy. If you ever read this, I want you to know that your Daddy and I are excited to meet you. We love you although we have not met you. You make me smile every time you move, kick, punch or hiccup. At one point of time, you started kicking every time you hear daddy's car at the gate every night. That was cute. My hope for you is that you will excel in everything that you put your hands on. I pray that you will be high-spirited and that you will not give up in anything that you do, till you succeed. I pray that you will always feel loved and never lonely. Know that you have me to confide in. No matter what the issue is at hand.  I don't know how the future is going to turn out, but know this, I love you and always will love you. 

Are you excited ?

I have decided that I don't like that question. It's because I always end up answering,"ermm..I'm nervous!"

Seriously, do you expect a NO for that question ? No, I'm not excited to meet my baby. No, I'm not excited that my life is going to change forever.

Of course not ! I want this baby ! I have secretly been wanting a baby even before I got married. So YES I am excited ! I smile when I feel the baby moves inside me. I get super excited when baby decides to respond to our conversation before bed with her by doing somersaults inside. I imagine her in my arms like all the time.

But on top of all the excitement, other feelings come into play. I'm scared for the delivery process. I'm scared that I might not know how to soothe my crying baby. I'm scared for the baby's future. I'm scared that she will turn out a horrible person because I do not know how to be a good mother.

I'm scared of many things. So please excuse me when I reply with an "ermm" when I get asked "Are you excited?"