Preparation Of The Arrival Of The Lil One

So since last week I had a week off of work, I decided to clean the room and prepare for the arrival of the lil one. I always thought I'm the strong kind but I had to sit down every 10 minutes when cleaning the husband's cupboard. 7 months and counting y'all.

Visited Ikea to get some wall shelves and a bookshelf. Managed to create a bit more space, like finally ! Wall shelves and the TV will be drilled on Wednesday. The TV cabinet will be sold off to make way for the side baby bed which I have ordered last week. Yes ! We're co-sleeping ! The side bed is only RM360 including postage and the mattress. It will arrive by end of September, fingers crossed ! So baby, please don't come out early okay. Your bed is not ready.

I gotta order the comforter set which will take at least a month as well.

On Saturday, Jeff and I went to the TCE baby expo at SACC. If it was up to me, I wouldn't have bought anything. Once Jeff said the magic words,"Take what you want", all bets are off ! haha ! We brought back bags of goods ! I would say 75% of the list is cleared.

Also, we received some gifts from my cousin, Nana, and SIL, Zarrin. Too cute but I couldn't share them with you :P

 Since the list is confusing me, I'm gonna list down here what I still need:
- Clothes (3m onwards)
- Swaddle
- Handkerchiefs
- Baby towels
- Baby rash cream (I wanted Drapolene but I think I'm going to change to the oil by Tropika)
- Comforter set by Kekabu Bayiku

I want this design

- Thermometer
- Nasal aspirator
- Diaper bag (XL Papa Shield Diaper Bag)
- Lotion for sore nipples
- Cotton wool/pad
- Cloth diapers

That's it I think.

I need this in my baby's life

http://www.bebetotz.com/shop/bath-shampoo-cream-safety/ubbi-diaper-pail-purple/

Bleeding At 28 Weeks

What I posted on social media - I was put to bed rest because I am too active. For those who have been pregnant, they are pretty skeptical. Being active is better for delivery.

So on Friday morning, I told my boss I am taking medical leave because I felt tired. I went back to sleep and at 10.30am, I woke up after the husband asked for breakfast. I stood up and my pants were wet. I touched it and to my surprise - blood. Fresh red blood. I looked at my pants and it was full of blood. Went to pee and I was still bleeding. Obviously I panicked. Got ready and went straight to the hospital. I cried for awhile but I got myself together. Good thing it happened when Jeff was still at home.

So when I reached UMSC Dr Nuguelis checked my blood pressure, did speculum checking, CTG and an ultra-sound. She told me I am bleeding too early so she needs to refer me to UMMC. She wrote a note that they need to do a scan again.

I was admitted at the labor ward. For the first time in my whole life, I had to go through the hospital procedure. They took my blood and inserted the baseline for drips. It is still there even after 4 days. It's annoying as hell. It was painful but nothing I can't handle.

Then came the injection. In case my baby comes out prematurely. I don't know what it's called but I heard them saying Dacsa. Or something like that. The nurse didn't lie. It was painful as hell. But I didn't cry. They had to give 2 dosage with 12 hours apart. I was anxious waiting for the second dose but it was not as bad as the first.

The scanning department closed early so they could not slot me in so they did a bed side scan. And then the doctor said it. Placenta previa. They put it as major. And they told me that I will have to stay until I deliver. Shocking, yes. My heart dropped. Oh and baby was breeching at the time.

I was transferred to the normal ward that night but I did not have my phone with me. I sure as hell miss my husband so much at times like this. So I pass my time by crying. Homesick.

When I got my phone the next day, I spent my free time listening to the Rainbow Relaxation Video that I learned in hypnobirthing. Then I visualized the baby turned to the right position, baby throwing the placenta up and a few other images that involved the placenta and the baby. The key was to remain calm.

With Allah's will, the scan this morning gave me good news. Baby's head is at the bottom and placenta is not lying low. Alhamdulillah. Now I am just waiting for doctor's update which I don't think is gonna happen today. One more night in the hospital I guess. I'm calmer now knowing that baby is fine but I still need the doctor to confirm so that I will feel completely at ease.

So that's my pregnancy story. Please put us in your prayers. Much love !

Ps: Please pardon my medical jargon.

The Lie Your Ex Told You

Another topic from Mix FM. I'll give a few.

Scenario 1:
My ex sent me to work (One Utama). He came down with me so we parked the car. When he came to pick me up. His eyes were red.

Lie 1 : My eyes got stung by the bee.
Fact: Nope. He was high on something.

So we went down to get the car and to my surprise, the car was at the same exact spot. I was like "Wow ! You got the same parking spot!"

Lie 2 : Yeah. I'm good like that. Eh, are the car keys with you ? 
Fact : A girl picked him up.

Scenario 2:
We were hanging out with friends and the friend was "smoking" and passed it to him.

Lie 3: I don't smoke.
Friend : Oh yeah. I forgot.

I didn't get it until we broke up.

Scenario 3:

Me: I need you. Can you come over ?
Lie 4: Oh I gotta help my mother clean the house.
Fact: He went out with his friends until 2-3 in the morning.

Scenario 4:

This happened when FB was new. I was exploring FB and stumbled upon my ex's FB page which I didn't know he had. Saw many pictures of clubbing nights with some girls.

Thanks to FB, if not I would not have known.

Let's say that is Lie #5.

Scenario 5:

My ex left his FB open. Big mistake. Found many chat messages with different girls. Flirting, tryna have a cyber sex,etc. I saw one where he gave his home address.

Lie 6: I was just testing her.

MY ASS !

Scenario 6:

The ultimate lie

My ex borrowed my car to go clubbing with his friends.

Lie 7: Didn't bring me because he said it's boys night out.

A friend told me that another girl posted a status saying that she had a damn good night with a few boys. My ex included.

Told him before that I need to use the car at 10 am but he didn't return until 12pm. So I asked him why was he late and why didn't he pick up my call.

Lie 8: Oh I had to send my friends back home - Which could be true but maybe only at 10 that morning. He was supposed to send back the car way before.

And on the reason why he didn't pick up my call - "Because I know you're gonna act crazy like this"

Asshole.

Above are lies from different people. I have many more but I can't recall. It's all in the past now.

What You See In The Mirror

What do you see when you look at yourself in the mirror?

Little kid:
Nobody really likes me. I'm not cute like my little sister. I'm scrawny and dark. Everybody prefers my littler sister to me. She's the cute one. She's the one with nice voice when reciting the Quran.

Teenager:
No boys like me. Everybody else has a boyfriend but not me. The boys that I like won't even look at me. I don't have fair skin. Boys love fair skin girls. If only I had fair skin.

Early 20's:
I am awesome. Yeap, I am. I'm having the time of my life. The world is my oyster ! Who cares about slim, fair-skin girls ? I AM BEAUTIFUL ! I'm different. I'm not typical. I love how I look and I love my free life.

At 30:
I am a failure. I've failed the baby inside of me. I wasted so many years and now I don't see my future progressing. But no, I will not give up. The baby is inside me. I don't want to teach my baby that. I have to be the best version of myself. I can't fail my baby, again.

The answer to MIX FM's question this morning; what do you see in the mirror ?