My Fear of Labor

A few people say if you are scared of giving birth then do not get pregnant. Well, I am scared as hell of labor but I've always wanted a child of my own. So when I got married, I never gave labor much thought. Every month I will expect my menses to not appear and give me the good news.

The 3rd month after I got married, we got the good news. Despite the original plan of having a child only a year after :P

But now, all I can think about is labor. Not just the pain, the possible complications that comes with labor as well. I try to cheer myself with the fact that I will be rewarded with martyr if I were to go any time between labor and 40 days after but the thought of leaving my husband and my beautiful child is too heartbreaking.

Then comes the pain. I am scared that I can't handle the pain. Sure there is an alternative => epidural. With all the scary stories that have surfaced lately, forget it. Besides, I am scared of needles too. The image below makes me wanna puke so yeah, FORGET IT.

I actually wonder if period pain is about the same as labor pain because my period pain is hell. If it's the same, although it's hell, at least I know how to handle it. 

I have been taking hypnobirthing classes with a practitioner named Ayuni. I will review the classes in next post (maybe) but 1 thing I must say, it has helped me a bit to calm my nerves down. So I guess I just gotta practice and think of happy thoughts. All fear out the window and believe in Allah. He knows best.

Easier said than done. Pray for me okay, dear friends?